what i want wednesday

The one thing that I really want today is for June 9th to be here! What happens on June 9th? I will be officially unemployed! Well, I will stop being paid to work, anyway. I am going to become a stay-at-home mom (again)! I'm extremely excited but equally as nervous. I stayed home with Monkey until he was 3 1/2 and I have always felt guilty for not doing the same with Mady-Lou. After you factor in the expense daycare, gas, etc...what the hell am i even working for?! Nickels, mostly. Occasionally dimes. So, MKH and I decided (he actually decided long ago but finally convinced me) that it makes more sense for me to stay home. I can't wait for library trips, the swimming pool, long walks, play dates, day camp, and all the other fun summer stuff that I will actually get to do with my rugrats instead of paying someone else (my sister-in-law) to do with them! Financially, we will be fine. The little I make pretty much goes directly to shopping so if I at least cut some of that out, we'll be golden. It sounds great in theory, but whether or not I can actually STOP shopping remains to be seen. Stay tuned to find out if I have driven my family into poverty...

Hello, blog. It's me, Nichole. You know, the one that used to write you and, at very least, check you a couple times a week? I've been neglectful, I know. You see, it's not you, it's me. Sorry to give you a line, but it's true. I've had work, tee-ball for Monkey, soccer for Monkey, and soccer myself. Add a side of sleep and the occasional bathroom break and I'm exhausted. That really shouldn't be an excuse since I scour the internet for nearly the entire 8 hours I am at work for some entertainment (you know, one can really never get too much of Facebook, Amazon, Craigslist, and Ebay). I just seem to have lost my creative juices lately. I haven't even started a scrapbook for Mady-Lou yet, who will be 10 months old next week. Of course, I have bought hundreds of dollars in scrapbooking supplies for her. Am I lazy? Probably. Boring? Most definitely. But maybe we can rekindle our relationship and have a fresh go-at-it? I promise to be attentive to your needs. I even promise to try to be more insightful instead of spewing my lame ramblings all over you. It's a lofty goal, I know, but I'm willing to try if you are. What do you say?

Wow, this past couple of months has been a whirl-wind! There isn't really one thing that would be super significant but a ton of little things that add up to...well...life! And a busy one lately! Between a weekend family getaway, food poisoning (I will NEVER eat brats again!), soccer, baseball, shopping for the kids, (very) sick family members, family members sipping off to the Air Force, etc! Obviously it's been quite crazy 'round here but we're holding it together.

Our very sick family member would be MKH's mom. She was recently diagnosed with cancer. They are unable to diagnose a specific type at this point. She went in for a hysterectomy because they thought she had some cysts on her uterus. Those cysts turned out to be tumors. They were able to remove the uterus and attached tumors but the real problem is the biggest tumor is attached to her kidney and wrapped around a blood vessel. Because of the blood vessel, they cannot remove it. She has already had several complications and 2 surgeries. It's been (obviously) very difficult for MKH to deal with. Being the introvert that he is, he hasn't talked about it a ton but clearly it is eating him up. She and I have never seen eye-to-eye, more than in just a typical in-law kind of way. She has done things that have made wanted to strangle her but I would NEVER want this to happen to her. I especially don't want to see my husband in pain. I can't imagine what it must be like to worry about losing your mom at any moment. Also, I want my kids to grow up with their Nana, who they love VERY much. Monkey has been so close to her and for that I am grateful. She is very strong though and shows no signs of weakness as of yet. This experience has quickly opened my eyes to be more forgiving and excepting of people's mistakes. I want nothing more right now than for her to be healthy. I can't bear the thought of my husband in so much pain. I can't bear the thought of explaining to my children the evilness that is cancer. I can't bear the thought of not having a mother-in-law for the good AND bad, for even the bad times add to the memories of life.

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Oye Vey, it's Monday! What a crazy weekend at la casa de Nichole! It included lots a Merlot, an intense conversation regarding Judaism, friends spitting beer all over my kitchen (twice), Monkey puking his poor little guts out all over his bedroom thanks to my new Nemesis Taco Johns, a epic search for a new car seat for Mady-Lou , and mud plastered all over my freshly cleaned minivan. I am VERY glad to be back at work today.

My 2¢ regarding the Grammys:

• Whitney Houston was high (duh)

• Cold Play was AWESOME

• Kid Rock's performance was (very surprisingly) touching
• The "rap pack" was atrocious and I was very concerned for M.I.A's unborn child (she was due THAT DAY)!
• As I usually listen to talk radio, I am sometimes a little behind on current artists. Am I the only one that was shocked that Boyz II Men still makes music? And Robert Plant? I had no idea who Adele even was! I need to get with the program!
• Miley Cirus made a good attempt to look wholesome but we all know she is a teenage whore.
• The Jonas Brothers should not have been allowed to sing with the great Stevie Wonder. They BUTCHERED "Superstition"
• Carrie Underwood has the most amazing legs EVER! She is very talented, as well.
• I am pissed that I missed Radiohead live but I did catch it on YouTube. Love.
• Sugarland is very talented but that chick always looks SO sad when she sings.
• Jennifer Hudson forgot to take the napkin out of her shirt before going on stage but she is still gorgeous.
  

What I Want Wednesday

There's only one thing on my list for this week's What I Want: